“Happy Valentine’s blah, blah, blah!”
As I read this on my friend’s social media page the other day, my heart became heavy. Why would it, when the last four February 14th’s have been spent with the man my soul has longed for? Some of you know how crazy divine our love story is, but for those who don’t … well, that’s a post for another day.
Yes, I’m blessed to have my Valentine, but I think the reason I can’t shake this feeling is that I know what it’s like to feel that “blah”. I’ve been alone on Valentine’s Day, especially emotionally. I’ve felt that pain in my heart too.
Fast forward to the year before I got engaged to my husband, Jim. I was single and more alone than I’d ever been. Yet, I felt the most loved.
How can that be? Well, my perspective was becoming more eternal as my relationship with Jesus grew. I sensed the Holy Spirit in my life like never before. I remember saying,
“Lord, I don’t need a man. All I want to do is live the rest of my life serving You and being Mom and Grammy, and that’s just fine with me. You are all I need. You are enough.”
So much freedom came with that declaration and I was filled with joy knowing how much I’m unconditionally loved by my Heavenly Father. Not because of anything that I did, but because of who He is. God loves you that way too!
If you’re feeling “blah”, know that you are NOT alone. Embrace Jireh! Praying for you. Love you!